to make you smile

yeah, i haven't posted in a while since i really loved my last story and it got two good reviews. so i'm a little hesitant to post something. but as they say in Bull Durham: moment's over, shut up. today i'm experimenting with points of view.
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your arms holding me
i've never felt something so magical
never felt so safe and comfortable
you always make me happy
but you always look sad
i want to make you smile
i try my hardest
sometimes it works
but sometimes, one time
i accidentally made you cry
i didn't mean to
i'm sorry
i love you
and i always want you to be happy
because you make me happy
happiness is the best feeling ever
other than love
i love you
and you make me happy
so you must just be
the best person
in the whole world
so please
let me make you happy
let me make you smile
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yes, for that poem i tried to write from the point of view of a baby/toddler. how did i do? could you tell? i tried to disguise it, but i'm not sure how i did. thoughts?

with liberty and justice for all

yeah, i'm so strung out that i used lyrics from the Pledge of Aligence as a title. i was trying to think up some thoughtful phrase about how screwed up life is, but i got nothing. today is another poetry, but PLEASE keep in mind this is ALL hypothetical! for real! i just love to think up how people around me or in books or on TV feel.
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everything is on the line
everything is in danger
everything is hanging in the balance
like someone trying to grip a slippery cliff for dear life
like being shot at with no weapon
like reaching for something to grab as you fall
it isn't fair
that you have to go through this too
but you assure me
it's what you want
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the little baby stares
it doesn't know a thing
it's too young to understand
it's parents,
the two people who used to love each other
more than anything but him,
are battling each other
to see who gets to keep him
to see him every day
a luxury they both used to take for granted
and one of them will soon lose
this is life
how it happens
some people say it's the mother's fault
other says it's the father's
but no matter who's to blame
they all have to gather
to battle for the little baby they love
and everyone knows
she's going to lose
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i love you
you're amazing
i love you
you're extraordinary
i love you
you're gorgeous
i love you
you're sweet
i love you
you're perfect

i told you so

i told you this was an every-once-in-a-while blog. i feel no need to make excuses about where i've been, since i've been here the whole time.
i feel like writing more somewhat depressing poetry. i hope you like it. and remember -- as Andrew seems to be the only one who knows, i write my crappy free verse about OTHER PEOPLE, not myself. i'm not at all vain like that.
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am i in denial?
am i afraid?
what's the matter with me?
you're perfect
everything i ever could have wished for
but yet i just can't say
i love you
those words won't go past my lips
they grab my tongue or my tonsils
they won't come out
and because i can't voice my love for you
for whatever reason
you don't know it
you think you're just my boy toy
but if you knew
how much more than that you mean to me
it would blow your mind
i don't care what they think
i don't care what they say
because i know i'm in love with you
but i'm too afraid of losing you to say it

a smile is a curve that sets things straight

everyone and everything in this world has flaws
everyone and everything has done something they're not proud of
something they wish they could take back
something they never should have done
something that makes people look the other way
pretend they're not there
you've done more than your fair show of those things
every day a new mistake comes back around to punish you
i should hate you for all the bad things you've done
i should leave you for all the craziness i can't even imagine
i should
but i can't
every time you smile everything else washed away
every time you smile i can't hate you
because it's that moment that you silently say
"i'm sorry" and "i love you"
your eyes just seem to whisper
"i'm telling the truth"
i should hate you, as everyone else
i should
but i could never think a bad thought about you
i could never say a mean word against you
i could never hate you
because i love you too much for that

[my fav so far, feedback is welcome]

tears

TEARS
fickle little things
dance down my cheeks
filling every little crease
of my imperfections
TEARS
ugly little things
let the whole world know
i can't hold it in
not anymore
TEARS
tiny little things
burn at my skin
as they creep down my face
slipping off my chin
TEARS
like a rainstorm as they fall
splashing the keyboard
burning my cheeks
choking off my breath

[trying to write a poem after Andrew's was a dumb idea]

love

love is simple
love is complicated
love is wonderful
love is overrated
love is beautiful
love is ugly
love is classy
love is gross

when you kissed me, my world snapped into focus
i know what's important and i know that it's you
don't walk out the door
i haven't said all i need to
but i can't tell you how much i love you
i can't find the words
you always have the right words without fail
i'm pale by comparison, almost white
even if i knew what to say, i would never be able to say it
your smile makes me go weak at the knees
your laugh is the best sound i've ever heard in my time on this sometimes miserable earth
i need you, i want you, i love you
i could say it a million times and you still wouldn't know
i love you, i love you, i love you
you won't know because i'm far too afraid of being hurt to make myself vulnerable
i'll watch from afar
i love you
and never say it
i love you
i'm too scared
i love you
i'm too chicken
i love you

[IMPORTANT NOTE: THAT LAST BIT OF PATHETIC FREE VERSE IS TOTALLY HYPOTHETICAL!!!]